The distinction between erotica and pornography (as well as the lesser known genre of sexual entertainment, ribaldry) is difficult to identify as it is, to a degree, highly personal. Essentially, the difference lies in the individual's approach to sexuality and the sex act. Inexperience and a simplistic social model of sexuality tends to produce a prurient and undeveloped approach to sexual pleasure, which revels in the deliberate flouting and perversion of accepted moral principles. A more open view of sexuality tends to set the moral view aside and accepts that sexual gratification is the right of each human being and each has the right to pursue that in their own way without judgmental burdens being placed on them by external sources.
Erotic art tends to spring from this latter, more amoral viewpoint. Proponents for erotic art argue that such work is intended to be artistically interesting and deliberate rather than simply sexually stimulating, and is therefore not pornographic. Opponents see this as a pretentious stand as they believe that erotic art is indeed intended for sexual arousal.
The issue of whether a distinction can be made between erotica and pornography raises multiple complicated questions. These questions include whether aesthetic and erotic feelings are mutually exclusive, how the level of commercialism and tastefulness in an artwork can be objectively measured, and at what point they make the work pornographic.
In general, "erotica" refers to portrayals of sexually arousing material that hold or aspire to artistic, scientific or human merit, whereas "pornography" often connotes the commercial, prurient, morally valueless depiction of sexual acts, with little or no artistic value.
So I think, given everything, if you’re not happy with how the finasteride is working for you your best bet is an orchie if that fits within your long-term goals. If you wanted to keep your gonads that’d be something else…. but if you want them to go, why not now? Definitely realistic, and your doctor can probably make a very good case with your insurance if the company is reluctant (., this is the *only* option left for suppressing your T effectively now, and suppression is necessary for treatment of your dysphoria which is a medical condition). Since you’re in California your insurance canNOT have a transgender exclusion clause in their policy. They can’t deny you surgery just because you’re trans — if they cover orchies for some, they have to cover them for all. CA is pretty awesome that way.
Estradiol's efficacy seems to vary widely with the person and the particular vehicle: I was on transdermal patches for two years ( , 2 patches changed twice weekly – considered a "high" dose of 17-beta estradiol), and my levels mostly stayed around 100 pg/mL, and I needed 100mg spironolactone daily to keep my testosterone down. When I switched to injections of Estradiol Valerate, as I was "titrating up" my testosterone was unmeasurably low at the same E2 level my patches were delivering. (I had decided to drop spiro at the same time due to it's side effects: for me it seemed to be fogging my brain and inducing suicidal ideation.) Increasing the dosage had the effect of adding a cup-size to my breasts after about two months of injections, after two years of HRT, at age 53 and with b-cup breasts already. This story is not unusual in the community, and it led me to try this form of HRT.